Today went pretty smoothly. I didn't weigh-in again this morning and I don't think I will until this bloating goes away because I don't want to get discouraged by looking at the scale.
I decided not to do a juice fast. I picked up the Winter 2009 issue of Oxygen magazine. There is a total hottie on the cover with the body I want. Except she has had 6 kids and I haven't had any. She says not to skip a meal and keep the metabolism going. Of course I know that. I have a degree in the stuff. But we all get crazy ideas now and then. As soon as I have a chance I will go to the grocery store and buy more clean food and try to eat six small meals a day. Maybe I'll go tomorrow.
I worked 9-9 today and I didn't workout. My fiance and I are staying in for this New Year's Eve. I know, we are boring, haha.
BF: Zone bar, Lunch: 5 pieces of sushi (the kind with a piece of rice and a slab of fish on top) and a small amount of fresh mozzarella and tomato salad, Dinner: Smart Ones meal. I don't plan on eating anything else tonight, maybe one or two bites out of a Fiber One bar. I will have a small glass of champaigne at midnight.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Past Success: 20 Pound Loss
I thought I would take this oppotunity (boredom) to write about how I succeeded in weight loss a few years ago.
I was always a little chubby growing up but during my second year in college I was at my heaviest. I was always on some sort of diet that I would fail at and start over each week. I never really had the drive or motivation to follow through. That summer I started a job at a plastic surgeon's office as a office assistant and surgery intern. Everyone in that office looked great and everyone was on a diet so I decided that I was going to start watching what I ate. I remember that time so distinctly. I would eat 2 Eggos for breakfast, a Luna bar as a snack, an apple and a Slim Fast shake for lunch, some sort of snack before the gym and whatever my mom cooked for dinner (I was home for the summer and living with my parents). I lost about 5 pounds in 2 weeks and I was feeling pretty good about myself already. My dad picked me up from work that day for some reason (I think he changed the oil in my car) and during the drive we chatted....
Dad: "So, I see you are dieting and getting results right away."
Me: **Smile**
Dad: "You know, you seem so happy now. I don't understand why you didn't do this a long time ago."
Me: "What do you mean?"
Dad: "Well, everytime I look at you at home you have something in your mouth. If looking better makes you THIS happy, well... (***key phrase to my success...***): Do you not have enough character to eat less, not stuff yourself and therefore make yourself happy?"
Wow, I thought. Well, I was pissed. Character? He is questioning my character??? Always something in my mouth??? I was so pissed but I was angry mostly because I knew he was right. I was so mad that from that day on I continued my eating plan but I didn't stick one thing in my mouth after dinner for the rest of the summer (4-5 weeks or so). He would offer me cookies, fruit, etc. while we watched TV as usual. I wouldn't eat one grape and give him the satisfaction. Haha. I ended up losing 20 pounds or so and feeling like a rock star. It was tough, we ate dinner at 6pm the latest. I went to bed starving some nights but it got easier. I am so happy that my dad gave me that reality check years ago. He didn't mean it to hurt me. He only wanted the best for me. I was so mad because I was embarrassed. He never told me I looked bad or anything like that...now he even tells me to put on some pounds here and there. I love him and I thank him for that.
I was always a little chubby growing up but during my second year in college I was at my heaviest. I was always on some sort of diet that I would fail at and start over each week. I never really had the drive or motivation to follow through. That summer I started a job at a plastic surgeon's office as a office assistant and surgery intern. Everyone in that office looked great and everyone was on a diet so I decided that I was going to start watching what I ate. I remember that time so distinctly. I would eat 2 Eggos for breakfast, a Luna bar as a snack, an apple and a Slim Fast shake for lunch, some sort of snack before the gym and whatever my mom cooked for dinner (I was home for the summer and living with my parents). I lost about 5 pounds in 2 weeks and I was feeling pretty good about myself already. My dad picked me up from work that day for some reason (I think he changed the oil in my car) and during the drive we chatted....
Dad: "So, I see you are dieting and getting results right away."
Me: **Smile**
Dad: "You know, you seem so happy now. I don't understand why you didn't do this a long time ago."
Me: "What do you mean?"
Dad: "Well, everytime I look at you at home you have something in your mouth. If looking better makes you THIS happy, well... (***key phrase to my success...***): Do you not have enough character to eat less, not stuff yourself and therefore make yourself happy?"
Wow, I thought. Well, I was pissed. Character? He is questioning my character??? Always something in my mouth??? I was so pissed but I was angry mostly because I knew he was right. I was so mad that from that day on I continued my eating plan but I didn't stick one thing in my mouth after dinner for the rest of the summer (4-5 weeks or so). He would offer me cookies, fruit, etc. while we watched TV as usual. I wouldn't eat one grape and give him the satisfaction. Haha. I ended up losing 20 pounds or so and feeling like a rock star. It was tough, we ate dinner at 6pm the latest. I went to bed starving some nights but it got easier. I am so happy that my dad gave me that reality check years ago. He didn't mean it to hurt me. He only wanted the best for me. I was so mad because I was embarrassed. He never told me I looked bad or anything like that...now he even tells me to put on some pounds here and there. I love him and I thank him for that.
Day 21
I woke up feeling like crap again and I didn't weigh-in. I have been having trouble with my BCP for the past few months...breakthrough bleeding and week early bloating and so forth. Plus I just looked at the calandar and realized I would have my period on my honeymoon. So today I got a new Rx for a pill I used to be on that was pretty dependable and I am manipulating my cycle to perfection, hehe. Meaning I won't have it for my cousin's wedding, my wedding, the honeymoon, or my friend Nicole's wedding. Gotta love messing with hormones. Anyway, today was so horrible that I refuse to post about it. I think I might do a juice fast tomorrow. Still thinking about it. I gotta start eating clean. I have to to start cutting out all the processed food I have been eating...like ice cream bars for one.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Day 20
Today went fairly well despite my horrifying weigh-in this morning: 140.9. Ugh, I am hoping it is not just from non-ideal eating but also because it is the week before my period and I have been feeling very bloated. We'll see. The true test will be after this period, around January 10th...I should be a solid 138 by then. January 10th will be day 32, so we'll see.
I woke up and went to the gym and had a heavy duty leg workout even though I desperately wanted to sleep in. I worked 9-9.
BF: Cheerios with fresh strawberries (165), Snack: Zone bar (190), Lunch: homemade ham sandwich on wheat, few pretzels, some popcorn (385)- I didn't actually eat all the pretzels and popcorn with lunch, I sort of grazed on it the rest of the day. We were so busy with work that I didn't get to eat dinner there. So before 10pm I had a toal of 740 calories. At 10pm I ate 300-400 calories worth of bean soup and 1 chocolate (about 60 calories). So 1200 calories max. I was very tempted to have a Skinny Cow ice cream tonight but I resisted.
One fifth of my challenge is complete. I am happy with myself for the most part so far. I actually kept up with the blog and I have been bouncing back after cheat days. So lets see...Day 40 will fall on 1/18, 1/2 way mark on 1/28, Day 60 on 2/7 (dress fittings start around the 10th), Day 80 on 2/27 (gotta look great for my cousin's wedding on the 28th) and finally Day 100 the day before my wedding. Craziness...this will fly by.
I woke up and went to the gym and had a heavy duty leg workout even though I desperately wanted to sleep in. I worked 9-9.
BF: Cheerios with fresh strawberries (165), Snack: Zone bar (190), Lunch: homemade ham sandwich on wheat, few pretzels, some popcorn (385)- I didn't actually eat all the pretzels and popcorn with lunch, I sort of grazed on it the rest of the day. We were so busy with work that I didn't get to eat dinner there. So before 10pm I had a toal of 740 calories. At 10pm I ate 300-400 calories worth of bean soup and 1 chocolate (about 60 calories). So 1200 calories max. I was very tempted to have a Skinny Cow ice cream tonight but I resisted.
One fifth of my challenge is complete. I am happy with myself for the most part so far. I actually kept up with the blog and I have been bouncing back after cheat days. So lets see...Day 40 will fall on 1/18, 1/2 way mark on 1/28, Day 60 on 2/7 (dress fittings start around the 10th), Day 80 on 2/27 (gotta look great for my cousin's wedding on the 28th) and finally Day 100 the day before my wedding. Craziness...this will fly by.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Day 19
Ugh, I woke up bloated and feeling like crap. I should've known better not to weigh myself: 140.1. Serves me right...what was I thinking yesterday...salty pistachios, salt and vinegar chip, beans and bread so late at night and a Skinny Cow ice cream cone right before bed that I didn't log in. Geez, now it sounds bad. Back to Cheerios and low fat today. We are having dinner with my fiance's dad tonight so I'll have to order grilled fish and steamed veggies instead of pasta at one of my favorite Italian places.
BF: 1.5 servings of Cheerios with fresh strawberries (250), Lunch: 1/2 ham sandwich and Skinny Cow ice cream cone (300), Dinner: Ugh...2 rolls with garlic butter (I would honestly call these rolls "small" compared to most restaurants), salad with italian dressing, baked salmon with a side of angel hair pasta and marinara sauce, Snack: Skinny Cow ice cream cone + piece of chocolate. OK, obviously something is wrong with me. I really have to crack down tomorrow. I work my usual 12 hours tomorrow so hopefully I can control myself and not eat after work. I am going to try to make it to the gym before work.
So I had 2 semi-bad days in a row. This is where the true test of strength comes in. I personally believe there is a huge different between "cheating" on a diet and "breaking" a diet. Every diet break begins with a cheat. But every cheat doesn't lead to a break. I feel a cheat is necessary for diet sanity. The problem comes in when you cheat for longer than a day or two. This is when you get so down on yourself that you continue cheating...leading to gaining all of the weight back that you worked so hard ot lose. We'll see how tomorrow goes. I have to keep reminding myself how good those size 6 jeans feel. Tomorrow marks the end of 1/5th of my journey. No excuses!
BF: 1.5 servings of Cheerios with fresh strawberries (250), Lunch: 1/2 ham sandwich and Skinny Cow ice cream cone (300), Dinner: Ugh...2 rolls with garlic butter (I would honestly call these rolls "small" compared to most restaurants), salad with italian dressing, baked salmon with a side of angel hair pasta and marinara sauce, Snack: Skinny Cow ice cream cone + piece of chocolate. OK, obviously something is wrong with me. I really have to crack down tomorrow. I work my usual 12 hours tomorrow so hopefully I can control myself and not eat after work. I am going to try to make it to the gym before work.
So I had 2 semi-bad days in a row. This is where the true test of strength comes in. I personally believe there is a huge different between "cheating" on a diet and "breaking" a diet. Every diet break begins with a cheat. But every cheat doesn't lead to a break. I feel a cheat is necessary for diet sanity. The problem comes in when you cheat for longer than a day or two. This is when you get so down on yourself that you continue cheating...leading to gaining all of the weight back that you worked so hard ot lose. We'll see how tomorrow goes. I have to keep reminding myself how good those size 6 jeans feel. Tomorrow marks the end of 1/5th of my journey. No excuses!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Day 18
Post sauna/alcohol intake weigh-in: 138.6. I have the worse dehydration headache ever.
BF: Glass of OJ, Snack: 120 calories or so of pistachios, Lunch: 150 calories of chicken, hot sauce, 140 calorie WW ice cream, bite size piece of chocolate, Snack: 1 servings of potato chips (140 calories) 10 grapes, 5 strawberries, Dinner: full bowl of bean stew, 3 slices of rye bread (from the end of the loaf so smaller pieces) with smart balance spread. I think I probably had about 1400 calories today. My fiance makes this awesome bean stew that is super healthy...it is made with a bunch of beans and veggies and no oil is used to make it. The only bad part about it is some thin slices of lean turkey kielbasa and dumplings. Sometimes we use pasta instead of the dumplings. He blends some of the beans and veggies so the soup ends up having a thick tecture. It is really filling and loaded with protein.
I did 2.3 miles of cardio outside around 3pm. I walked 0.2, ran 1.4 straight, then walked 0.7.
Before dinner, around 7, I did a small heart pumping workout. 20 quick squats, 5 push-ups, 20 squats, 10 push-ups, 20 side lunges, 10 push-ups and 20 tricep dips. Followed by leg lifts and 100 crunches. I wish I had gone to the gym today becuase it is closed on Sundays. So tomorrow I can't. I will probably do The Shred tomorrow. We'll see. I am scared to step on the scale tomorrow because I am SO full from dinner right now.
BF: Glass of OJ, Snack: 120 calories or so of pistachios, Lunch: 150 calories of chicken, hot sauce, 140 calorie WW ice cream, bite size piece of chocolate, Snack: 1 servings of potato chips (140 calories) 10 grapes, 5 strawberries, Dinner: full bowl of bean stew, 3 slices of rye bread (from the end of the loaf so smaller pieces) with smart balance spread. I think I probably had about 1400 calories today. My fiance makes this awesome bean stew that is super healthy...it is made with a bunch of beans and veggies and no oil is used to make it. The only bad part about it is some thin slices of lean turkey kielbasa and dumplings. Sometimes we use pasta instead of the dumplings. He blends some of the beans and veggies so the soup ends up having a thick tecture. It is really filling and loaded with protein.
I did 2.3 miles of cardio outside around 3pm. I walked 0.2, ran 1.4 straight, then walked 0.7.
Before dinner, around 7, I did a small heart pumping workout. 20 quick squats, 5 push-ups, 20 squats, 10 push-ups, 20 side lunges, 10 push-ups and 20 tricep dips. Followed by leg lifts and 100 crunches. I wish I had gone to the gym today becuase it is closed on Sundays. So tomorrow I can't. I will probably do The Shred tomorrow. We'll see. I am scared to step on the scale tomorrow because I am SO full from dinner right now.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Day 17
Morning post-holiday weigh-in: 139.6 (haaaaaaa-llllllleeee-lujah, ha-le e e e-lujaaaaahhhhhh).
This is kinda too embarassing to type out but here goes....
I slept in till almost 1pm. I ate Cheerios. My fiance and I didn't have anything in plan for the day so we decided to go out with his friends tonight (a lot of them are visiting from out of town and we haven't seen them for a while). Since my social life in this new town is extremely limited I got excited to get pretty and wanted to devote the day to doing something that will make me feel that way. When I was in college, my best friends and I would have days where we were really excited to go out...we would go to the mall and get a new outfit, do our nails, tan by the pool and then listen to music while we all got ready. Those we the days! Anyway, so I put on my gym clothes, and set out to run a million errands. I went to the mall and got 2 pairs of new jeans at Express (they were on sale!). And get this...they are both size 6!!! I even bought a new shirt for the fiance that he wanted. Then I went straight to the gym. I was kinda light headed so I bought a bag of pretzels and a bag of fruit snacks at the gym and ate about 1/2 bag of each before my workout. I did back and biceps. I wanted to cram in a cardio workout so between sets I would do about 40 lunges really fast to get my heart pumping. It felt really good to lift. I guess my whole 10 day focus on legs went down the drain. =(
Anyway, so I like to tan in the sun. I gave up tanning beds a long time ago. But I am the most pale I have ever been so I decided to look online earlier in the day to see if there was a Planet Beach in the area. I got so lucky because not only did I find one 3 minutes away from my gym but it is not just a tanning salon, it is a spa version of Planet Beach. The website had a "3 services pass" coupon for first time visitors! So I went there and and did their hydration theray (pretty much a cocoon shaped thing you get into that acts like a sauna). I think I lost 3 pounds of water weight in there. Then as my second free service I did a stand up tan. I still have one service left. Not sure what I will do. They said I can use it for a mystic spray tan but I am kinda nervous to do that. Especially since the girl that was telling me how natural it looked was kinda orange.
So I rushed home to get ready. It was 6pm by this time and the fiance wanted to leave between 6 and 7. Yikes. Naturally we didn't leave the house till 8, haha. I'm a loser. So we went to a party and then to a bar. All night I was starving and ready to eat afterwards. I had 2 beers and a cranberry-vodka. We almost stopped by a McDonalds but both the fiance and I talked ourselves out of it. We got home at 2:30am. I ate 450 calories worth of food and went to bed.
This is kinda too embarassing to type out but here goes....
I slept in till almost 1pm. I ate Cheerios. My fiance and I didn't have anything in plan for the day so we decided to go out with his friends tonight (a lot of them are visiting from out of town and we haven't seen them for a while). Since my social life in this new town is extremely limited I got excited to get pretty and wanted to devote the day to doing something that will make me feel that way. When I was in college, my best friends and I would have days where we were really excited to go out...we would go to the mall and get a new outfit, do our nails, tan by the pool and then listen to music while we all got ready. Those we the days! Anyway, so I put on my gym clothes, and set out to run a million errands. I went to the mall and got 2 pairs of new jeans at Express (they were on sale!). And get this...they are both size 6!!! I even bought a new shirt for the fiance that he wanted. Then I went straight to the gym. I was kinda light headed so I bought a bag of pretzels and a bag of fruit snacks at the gym and ate about 1/2 bag of each before my workout. I did back and biceps. I wanted to cram in a cardio workout so between sets I would do about 40 lunges really fast to get my heart pumping. It felt really good to lift. I guess my whole 10 day focus on legs went down the drain. =(
Anyway, so I like to tan in the sun. I gave up tanning beds a long time ago. But I am the most pale I have ever been so I decided to look online earlier in the day to see if there was a Planet Beach in the area. I got so lucky because not only did I find one 3 minutes away from my gym but it is not just a tanning salon, it is a spa version of Planet Beach. The website had a "3 services pass" coupon for first time visitors! So I went there and and did their hydration theray (pretty much a cocoon shaped thing you get into that acts like a sauna). I think I lost 3 pounds of water weight in there. Then as my second free service I did a stand up tan. I still have one service left. Not sure what I will do. They said I can use it for a mystic spray tan but I am kinda nervous to do that. Especially since the girl that was telling me how natural it looked was kinda orange.
So I rushed home to get ready. It was 6pm by this time and the fiance wanted to leave between 6 and 7. Yikes. Naturally we didn't leave the house till 8, haha. I'm a loser. So we went to a party and then to a bar. All night I was starving and ready to eat afterwards. I had 2 beers and a cranberry-vodka. We almost stopped by a McDonalds but both the fiance and I talked ourselves out of it. We got home at 2:30am. I ate 450 calories worth of food and went to bed.
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